Your Face (kandigurl) wrote,
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Do you know what's cool?

What's cool is riding your bike around a quiet neighborhood on a brisk fall day. I think I wanna do that now. I've downloaded the song "Long December" by Counting Crows. I remember in 7th or 8th grade when I heard this song so much that I absolutely hated it. But I haven't heard it since then. And then I heard it again last week while I was in the car, and I realized what a good song it is. The line that really gets me is "I can't remember all the times I've tried to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass." Because it's true, and I've been thinking a lot about how high school is finally ending. And in a way, a BIG way, I'm thrilled to death about it, because it really bites. Everyone is still under the mindsets forged in Jr. High of who's cool and who's not, and I'm one of the nots. Meaning my high school career has been a less than desirable one. But then again, there are my friends. My good friends, my best friends, whom I love, and who I am so lucky to have for friends. Because when you're not cool, your friends are not cool too, and that makes you closer. You realize you're all you have, and that screwing up these friendships is a BAD idea. So you unite, you bond, and you love. And now I realize that I will be leaving, and they will be leaving, and who knows if I'll ever see them ever again? What if they go somewhere and forget to give me their address, or what if they lose my phone number, or what if...? And there's also just this feeling you get when you're in high school. The Big Bad World doesn't matter, because you really don't have to face it yet. You can focus on having fun, the future will take care of itself...but now it won't, we have to make it. Well, I want to go bike riding, so, dwell on this. Have fun!
Tags: emo, friends, high school, long december, rambling
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