Here's something I noticed I do a lot in class. I'll get into one of the postures I consider "hard", and I won't really push to improve it. I'll think, "Well, I don't feel very well today, or my focus just isn't really here today, or I'm not feeling very strong today, or my joints aren't really into it today, so I won't really push today, I'll work harder on improving this tomorrow." And I'll let you guess what happens tomorrow. The same thing.
So today in class, while I was bent over and grabbing my feet and staring down at the floor, I went into my normal pattern of, "Well, I just want to relax from the balancing postures, I'll touch my forehead to the floor one of these days, but today I think I'll just hang out." Then out of nowhere, something snapped and I said to myself (quite firmly), "What is wrong with today? Why not try to reach your forehead to the floor today? You may not get there, but at least you aren't just giving up. 'Someday' is vague and undefinable. Today is here, now, concrete, and can be worked at and improved upon. Shut up and DO IT."
So I did it. Well, I didn't touch my forehead to the floor, but I stopped making excuses for not trying to, and just pulled like you're supposed to and tried like you're supposed to. I mean, I paid money for this class, money I set aside for four weeks to be able to go back, money I pulled from the nooks and crannies of my budget, a dollar at a time, for the opportunity to stand in this hot room and try to touch my forehead to the floor. What sense did it make to pay that money, drive all the way over here, and then not push? None.
So there's my reflection for the day. Why not work on improvement today, instead of just magically expecting it to appear somewhere down the line? This is something that will likely take some effort to apply to the other aspects of my life, but at least I can work on it bit by bit in these classes.
