YEAH.
Ready for that to stop.
However, the dreams I am having are INCREDIBLY vivid. Somewhere in the three winks of sleep I got last night, I had a dream about The Boy. Very vivid. Very weird, because there wasn't anything particularly random about it like there usually are in my dreams. We just had a conversation, the conversation I keep wanting to have with him, and it had a distinct beginning, middle, and end. Not all chopped up like dreams normally are, not cut off mid-thought like dreams usually are. Needless to say, when I woke up afterwards, I was in a bit of a funk (and still am, kind of) because it wasn't real.
He was on the phone talking to someone. Presumably the girl. Anyway, that's the impression I got. I walked by, saw him, met his eyes and walked on. Then I decided to go back and talk to him. He ended his conversation and I said, "So, are we ever going to talk again?"
He shrugged. "You know why we're not."
"Not really."
Bits I can't fully remember, but basically what went down last time we hung out.
And here I explained what I've been wanting to tell him forever, that yeah, it was cool, but what I really wanted was my friend, someone I could bullshit with, and the guy I used to hang out with and share things with with no problem at all.
It seemed to click with him that I wasn't BSing. I didn't bother mentioning the girl, I didn't feel it was worth it.
Then here, I think my fantasy brain took over: He said, "Just so you know, you tasted wonderful."
I shook my head. "Don't tell me things like that."
Then I went to give him a hug, and this is the part that was most vivid because it felt like we both wanted to kiss, that strong, tugging sensation you get. But I didn't, because I wanted to be true to what I said, that I just needed his friendship.
If I had known it was a dream, fuck, I would have kissed him. Oh, well.
Conversation ended on the upnote that he would actually call me back once in a while and we'd hang out more, and then I had somewhere I needed to be, so I left.
Today in my lj history:
2001:
Nothing at all, but I just noticed that 2007 is going along exactly like 2001, IE: Today, June 15th is Friday, and it was also Friday in 2001. INTERESTING FACTOID FOR THE CURIOUS.
2005:
Bitching about spyware!
2006:
Ouch. A bitter post about Drew, I almost hate to link to this because of how okay with him I am now.
