October 28th, 2010

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Not A Smoker

Last night, I had a dream where I was a smoker.

This happens every so often. I don't know why. It started happening mostly when I started hanging out with a lot of smokers, but I really don't hang out with smokers that much anymore. These dreams are extra weird because I've never had a cigarette in my life and I never want to. But last night, I had one of my smoker dreams.

They are extra strange because they feel so real. I remember thinking in the dream, as I sat there smoking and immediately lit up another cigarette once I'd extinguished the one I'd just finished, "How can I claim to not drink or smoke when I have these cigarettes every so often?" Usually in the dreams, I'm a casual smoker and I only pick up a cigarette every once in a while. I sat there thinking, "I tell people I've never done any sort of substance, yet here I sit, smoking."

I don't know. It's very weird and mind-fuckish. Then when I wake up, I'm like, WHAT. BRAIN. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU.

I've never had dreams like this about drinking or doing any other sort of drug. Just smoking. Fucked if I know why.