September 30th, 2001

Tree Dreaming

This is all I get.

I pour my heart and soul into a post, and what do I get in response? Mr. Stoop telling me Bif shops at his store, and Spinooti asking if I was stomping on the gas and break pedal. This is why I love my friends. Thank you, friends!
Tree Dreaming

Thoughts on Drew....

Just when I think I'm completely happy, something always happens to question that. I don't think that Drew realizes just how much I love him, and how important he is in my life. The fact is, he is the MOST important thing in my life, and nothing that I do would mean anywhere near as much if it weren't for his impact on my life.
Ever since I've been dating him, engaged to him, everything I do feels more important. It's as if the stuff I do matters to someone, because for some reason the stuff I do matters to him. When I was in elementary school, I had this odd sense of security in myself, that I could do whatever I wanted only if it was important to me. Jr. High and the first part of high school killed that in me. I started caring more and more about what other people thought about me so that I would be accepted and have friends.
Ever since Drew has become a part of my life, I have that back. I know that it really doesn't matter what other people think of me, as long as I'm happy. He keeps telling me he wants me to be happy, and that alone makes me happy. Every day is just so much easier, knowing that he's somewhere out there loving me. And for that, I love him and appreciate him more than anything else in the world. If I didn't have him, high school would be complete torture, and all my friends would be ones I gained attempting to impress. I don't think I'd still have my individuality if it weren't for Drew.

Honey, if you're reading this, I love you sooooo much, you are the most important and vital part of my life. I am extremely grateful for you each and every day. You've made my life the best it can be, and I believe that you will continue to do so. I can only hope I do the same for you. I love you!
Tree Dreaming

The dress I want for prom

Hi! I really want this dress for prom. Look at it. Isn't it hideous? I love it. I think it's hideous in a beautiful way. Like trolls are ugly in a cute way. I want to buy it and wear it for prom with some sneakers or chunky boots or sneakers, and I'm gonna get these funky hair extentions with blue at the ends and the rest of my hair'll be blonde and it's gonna be braided and I think it'll be COOL. And, in conclusion, if you bought me this dress, I'd love you forever.